What’s next in God’s Plan?
The decision didn’t came in an instant. The decision came after the few weeks discernment and constant hope. It was one of the most difficult decision ever, to the most unpredictable place and could be in not-so-good-neither-bad timing.
I resigned from my current company.
I’m having mix emotions right now. Happy, yes, maybe because I was able to find a new work place here in Singapore. Worried, most likely, because starting today, unexpected things might happen and since I’m so vulnerable right now because of the things happening in my life right now due to unenthusiastic forces surrounding me, there is a tendency for me to really give up. Honestly, I’m not worried of not getting a new job here in Singapore because I can always return to the Philippines and continue the life that I left there. Much heartrending? One could be, or most likely the saddest is, saying goodbye to my new-found family here in Singapore.
It was His plan for me to be here. It could be His plan this time for me to go back home.
What triggered me to relieve myself from my current company? Money. Mukha na nga akong pera siguro. It’s just like I want to see my face in one of the dollar sheets. It could be the devilish way of life, thinking about money. Will that be a call to return to the dark side? As long as what I’m earning is for the betterment of my family, then so be it.
Another? Career of course. I don’t like what’s happening with my career with my current employer. I’m in the height of looking for more knowledge, more exposure and more marketable-me. Not a selfish thing actually. Because it’s the only gift I can give to myself. To sum up, I don’t want to see myself going to work but don’t really work at all.
God knows how miserable I am fighting my struggles here in Singapore. He knows how homesickness consumes my whole being. Though I’m still trying to fight for that negative emotion, He knows that I’m already exhausted. I’m just waiting Him to tell me, “You’re already tired. It’s time for you to go home”.
Right now, I’m thinking what should be done in my remaining 2 months here in my current employer. I want to spend it with SFC. I want to continue my service to the community to the fullest without minding all the struggles that will hinder me to attain it. I want to go to the places I’ve never been before. I want to spend my remaining days here with my best buddies, my closest family, my truest friends – Raggamuffin Family.
And when I’m home, I’ll be cherishing the days I spent here in Singapore, the people, the places I’ve been, the food, the happy moments of my life, while continuing the life I used to love before I went here. My journey back home can also be the answer to my question which SFC chapter really needs my service? Until now, I’m still worried about it.
If God permits me to stay here in Singapore, then that could be fine. Sacrifices, sometimes I’m always thinking about it when I need to deal with His plan. Too painful most of the times. Nevertheless, I just hope He will continue to bless me and provide good people, to become my stronghold and my strength in times that things are so unclear and the uncertainties are so unbearable.
I’m asking everyone to please pray for me.
God bless everyone!
I resigned from my current company.
I’m having mix emotions right now. Happy, yes, maybe because I was able to find a new work place here in Singapore. Worried, most likely, because starting today, unexpected things might happen and since I’m so vulnerable right now because of the things happening in my life right now due to unenthusiastic forces surrounding me, there is a tendency for me to really give up. Honestly, I’m not worried of not getting a new job here in Singapore because I can always return to the Philippines and continue the life that I left there. Much heartrending? One could be, or most likely the saddest is, saying goodbye to my new-found family here in Singapore.
It was His plan for me to be here. It could be His plan this time for me to go back home.
What triggered me to relieve myself from my current company? Money. Mukha na nga akong pera siguro. It’s just like I want to see my face in one of the dollar sheets. It could be the devilish way of life, thinking about money. Will that be a call to return to the dark side? As long as what I’m earning is for the betterment of my family, then so be it.
Another? Career of course. I don’t like what’s happening with my career with my current employer. I’m in the height of looking for more knowledge, more exposure and more marketable-me. Not a selfish thing actually. Because it’s the only gift I can give to myself. To sum up, I don’t want to see myself going to work but don’t really work at all.
God knows how miserable I am fighting my struggles here in Singapore. He knows how homesickness consumes my whole being. Though I’m still trying to fight for that negative emotion, He knows that I’m already exhausted. I’m just waiting Him to tell me, “You’re already tired. It’s time for you to go home”.
Right now, I’m thinking what should be done in my remaining 2 months here in my current employer. I want to spend it with SFC. I want to continue my service to the community to the fullest without minding all the struggles that will hinder me to attain it. I want to go to the places I’ve never been before. I want to spend my remaining days here with my best buddies, my closest family, my truest friends – Raggamuffin Family.
And when I’m home, I’ll be cherishing the days I spent here in Singapore, the people, the places I’ve been, the food, the happy moments of my life, while continuing the life I used to love before I went here. My journey back home can also be the answer to my question which SFC chapter really needs my service? Until now, I’m still worried about it.
If God permits me to stay here in Singapore, then that could be fine. Sacrifices, sometimes I’m always thinking about it when I need to deal with His plan. Too painful most of the times. Nevertheless, I just hope He will continue to bless me and provide good people, to become my stronghold and my strength in times that things are so unclear and the uncertainties are so unbearable.
I’m asking everyone to please pray for me.
God bless everyone!
posted by Almin Manalo at 8:05 PM
6 Comments:
Take heed on an excerpt from Life's Journey:
Do not be afraid to encounter risks.
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.
Matthew 6:33
- But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you..
will pray for you bro..God knows the desires of your heart..
God bless..
Hi Almin! Uwi ka na ba talaga?! Whatever your decisions, hindi ka naman pababayaan ni Lord. I'll pray for you.
Kapit na parang linta Alminoy!!! :) We love you!! Kaya natin ang lahat!! Kasama natin si Lord at alam kong di tayo pababayaan. :)
Oo nga pala. I am always inspired whenever I read your emails to remind the ragga to hold on. Your matured wisdom transcends your age. :) Kaya kapit lang talaga tayo lagi. :)
Sarap maging ragga!!!
Moo, I'm always sticking to His Plans. Even if some people told me to claim it, I do always have this mentality not to assume that His plans will be the same as mine. Sometimes, what I ask is not what it may seemed to be. There's always something better in store. I always believe that what's in store will lead me to Him.
Sabi nila, it's pessimism. Well, for me hindi. It's more on not expecting much on something that I desire.
Don't worry. Wala pa naman ako sa araw na iyon. I do still have 2 months to be with you guys. If that day comes and I need to be with my family, then I know it's for my own good.
Kakapit ako! Ciempre. Kahit physically not present ako, in spirit, lagi nyo akong kasama. We'll always be together. Nabanggit ko na eto kay Bro. Rey and Bro. Jomer. My EP approval will be the answer to my prayer kung san dapat ako lulugar for service. Other chapters might need me. It's part of being in a evangelization thing.
Continue praying for me.
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